2004-02-10 - 11:30 p.m.
i got back my test for famr today, the one i spent three days studying for, the one that seemed way too easy. yeah, i got a 41/50; the highest score in the class was a 43/50. god dammit i kick ass. the thing is, those three days of studying ammounted to only like, four hours of studying.
and in philosophy today, i told the whole class that i was petty and shallow. here, i'll tell you guys the story just because i got time. we had to read the ring of gyges which is about some dude who finds a ring that he can use to make himself invisible. the greek sophists who were discussing the story (in Plato's Crito, where we read the ring of gyges), said that to humans, doing bad without the fear of vengence was good. i agreed because as we all know, it feels really good to be an asshole sometimes. a lot of the time. all the time. but yeah, so the teacher had all of us go around the room saying what we'd do if we could be invisible. in the beginning, people were saying stuff like "i'd steal money," "playboy mansion" "go tiffanys and take stuff" y'know, the usual. then the one girl who i don't like because she's all catholic-rightous and shit said that she'd "go and change the un-just laws." riiiight... then people started saying "well, i don't think i'd use the ring's power because it's only going to lead to evil." fuck yeah it's going to lead to evil, that's why i want the god damned ring. i told the class "well, i don't know about you guys, but i am petty and shallow. i'd use the ring to punch stupid customers in the back of the head. knock some damn sense into them." the class laughed and i felt good because i'm not a god damn liar. i'm an asshole and i'm proud fucking of it.
speaking of me being an asshole, i drove julie home tonight. out to waipahu. it's not a bad drive at 10 at night though. only takes like 20 minutes each way. didn't even finish my bob marley cd. nah, i actually felt sorry for her because then she'd make her mom wait in town for an extra hour. plus i like driving. and i like to help people to try and atone for my assholeness. plus julie doesn't piss me off like peggy does. but i still helped peggy though. fucker...
y'know, it really hurts being nice to her. because i don't know if she knows that i don't like her and is playing the same game or what, but yeah.
sio and i talk a lot about being moral and shit like that. i look at him as my modern day philosopher. he tells me what i need to hear to become a better, less petty, less shallow person. i call him my socrates. but let it be known, he doesn't do little boys though. it's a good thing i'm 19. *wink*
yeah, we got a good laugh out of that one.
man am i tired. i should go eat something and go doodoo. and drink a mountain dew and go shishi.
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