2004-10-13 - 12:21 a.m.
i don't understand it, but i have a huge problem with getting cruised by ugly guys. in the year plus that i've worked at the bookstore, i've been cruised by two guys and both are ugly. one looks like a fucking hobbitt and the other is this little scrawny ass mother fucker that i want to smash his face in. not because i'm being crusied by him but because it looks like i could smash his face in. i'm not the type of guy to beat up people because they're fags, i'm more the guy who wants to beat the shit out of people because i think i can.
yeah, it just really bothers me that i get cruised only by ugly people. man, i'd rather be checked out by an ugly chick than by a gay guy. i think it's partially because i just don't like the idea that all i can get is ugly guys. i'm sure they'll fuck anyone so it's like i'm just anything. even ugly chicks have standards.
yeah... whatever.
i also figured out why i like sports so much. it's because a lot of games have that life and death feeling (like the yankees-sox match up right now) but in the end, there's always next season. it's not so final. unlike real life. when something is life and death in real life, there's usually a matter of finality to it when it's done, as in someone could be dead.
sports though, when the colts lose to the patriots, you live and die with every play, but at the end of 60 minutes, everyone is still alive and there's next season to go at it again. in real life, when someone is in the hospital, you're never sure what could happen just like a game, but in the end, there might not be a next season.
and on another totally unrelated note, my headphones are broken and i don't have a spare set. FUCK!
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