2008-05-01 - 10:31 p.m.
i got pretty damn sick...
i lost most of my voice during the two launch days. it sucked. it sounded like i was going through puberty again... not that i really went through puberty the first time. i woke up and my voice was deep. this time i had the squeaky stuff going on.
but the launches went okay i guess. mario kart sucked, 18 pick-ups, three of them employees. GTA on the other hand was 80 pick-ups--5 employees. that was way bigger than i thought.
that girl who lives on the other side of the world that reads my diary was writing about having a shitty birthday. i totally felt what she was dealing with. i didn't have quite the same experience as she did, but i could totally understand the having a shitty birthday and wanting to hide but not being able to and kinda just trying to swallow all the shame and hurt that you're feeling.
donna told me that once i was moved in to my place, my life would really start for me. i haven't felt anything happen yet. its been nothing but dead ends for me mostly. i got a raise, but the 5% turned out to be like $80 a month after taxes. that... pays for my monthly porno subscriptions... or something like alcohol.
lets see... since i've moved in to this place:
dana: wouldn't tell me she had a bf and then let me find out in the worst possible way.
pet shop girl (michelle): i wasn't interested in her, but donna kinda piqued my interest in her and then i find out she has a bf.
steph (therapy): has a husband and is 31 yrs old. 'nuff said.
bre: i can't stop talking to her because she's like the only girl in the world i know for sure is single that i could see talking to for more than a few minutes.
all the girls on yahoo! personal: not a single one has ever responded to me. i'm tempted to email them again asking them what i'm doing wrong. "i get it that you're not interested in me, but what do i have to do to get just a response?"
god, i should just give up. and then, the girls i would like to get rid of i just can't. sarah won't go away! she started to apply at other places for employment, and they just won't hire her! grah!
i would yell out loud, but my throat hurts too much to do that.
plus, reid is quitting on me. i want to go to lids already...
kim told me that this personality test i took said i'm avoidant dependent. plus i have a high dependence on alcohol.
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