2008-05-21 - 11:13 p.m.
just when i was begining to accept the whole single, deal with only myself, lifestyle, something karmic had to happen and piss me off.
i went into barnes & noble to buy the new palahiuck novel and there's this super cute girl working the cashier. turns out she's new and really cute and works in a bookstore. right there, two criteria that i absolutely love in a girl. that she's new and that she's cute. no... i kid, it's actually the other one... (which one does he mean?!?!)
but anyway...
she's super cute and i'm all in love with her right now because i get like that. i tried to make some small talk with her when i realized that it's what i should do. i even remembered to smile AT her, instead of the ground like i normally do. but anyway... yeah... nothing happened. i planned on saying "bye" to her as i left, but she was already helping someone else. sad times...
so yesterday... this kid that i absolutely hate comes in asking about an application that he turned in and i told him to go try ala moana because i was fed up with him already. anyway, after he left i felt really bad about that so i text'd bre to warn her about him. that led to the two of us text'ing for a while. i managed to keep it cool so that she wouldn't get the feeling like i wanted to ask her out on a date-date. i think i did a good job of it.
and then donna text's me saying that kari met bre and that kari thought bre was cute!
what the fuck? i'm the only guy who thinks shes cute because i'm coming to the realization that i like ugly chicks. and when i say i like ugly chicks, it's not that i think ugly chicks are like 8's... it's that i know they're like 4's and 5's and i STILL like them!
anyway, so i went back to B&N today because i finished the palahiuck book in a day and a half and i wanted to pick-up a new book. so i walked around for the longest time looking for something before i settled on candide because it's something i've wanted to read for a while and it's short. why do i want it to be short? it's so i'll have more of an opportunity to go back and see the girl.
today, i managed to make small talk with her though. it was very awkward and forced because i'm like that. i wanted to ask her out, but i didn't know the words to say. i think one of these days i'll just say "i've never done this, but if you want to hang out sometime, here's my number" i'll say as i run off because i'm too embarassed of what i just did.
anyway...
so, with my heart still aflutter all day long because of the bookstore girl, i get a phone call from bre saying she just dealt with that jerk i sent her way. it was a good thing i warned her, huh? anyway, she was having a bad day at work because it's stupid busy 'cause of wii fit, and that kid just made it worse for her. i appologized and offered to make it up to her. we settled on dinner sometime. i told her to call me when she wants to have dinner. i felt so stupid after i hung up because i'd done so well to keep it jocular for two days. and then i go and ruin it by asking her out to dinner. fuck. why can't i get over her? she's so bad news for me. i hate myself sometimes... she's my kryptonite, yo.
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