2000-11-24 - 13:50:15
dear lord... today's so BORING!
my mother just had to insist on telling me that they were leaving this morning. AT 6:45 AM!!! and then i couldnt really get back to sleep. i was fading in and out of half-conciousness for the next 15 minutes trying valiantly to get back to sleep. it didnt quite work out so well.
so, admitting defeat, i decided to wake up, cold, tired, uncomfortable, and mostly discombobulated.
its almost 10 now, so i've been up for the past three hours. on a holiday. before noon. i should just be waking up now. and looking for brunch. but oh well... i admit defeat. oh yeah, i've been watching the doug marathon since about 8 A.M.
ahhh!!! i have the military ball in less than 7 hours. i wish i hadnt ironed my clothes or something just so i'd have something to do. but im most deffinately happy i shined my shoes already, cause that gets real boring, real fast.
god dammit! im bored. i think im just going to keep typing the random thoughts that flood my skull inplace of a brain.
last night, i was up till about 2 A.M. for a small portion of that time i was talking to sherri. she wont admit shes buff. and she has this weird illusion that i am just cause im in rotc. i think sherri and whitney should enter the STREND competition. i wanted to enter it with brian, but hes got ranger FTX (Field Training eXercise) one of those days so he cant really go. it'd be good if i went with brian cause we're about the same build. hes taller and stronger and faster than me, but if i got some motivation, i can push a little bit harder and farther.
argh... stupid military ball leave me with nothing to do. im all bored right now. i dont even know why the fuck im typing. i should be like sleeping right now, but i cant. and i dont really wanna eat left overs from last night, but i want food. ugh... bored. i wonder what the foods gonna be like tonight. i wonder what picture packets me and shannon are gonna get. i wonder what pose we're gonan get. i wonder if keith is gonna kick my ass for taking the wrong pose with shannon. ay caramba... im such a spaz.
ah, theres that word again. spaz. i had a long conversation with kim last night about me being a spaz. she thinks im not. im pretty damn sure i am. i mean, what kinda loser starts to get bent outta shape by a girl simply waving/smilling hello. especially! when that guy's never heard her freaking voice? thats the hallmark of a spaz/loser. ugh... and theres even more circumstances about it, but i cant say them for they may lead to her identity being revealed. but i doubt that many of you would know her, but... y'know? its just cause im a spaz and is afraid to let any details out. i wasnt even sure if i should write about this thing the first time. thank god its a holiday. then i dont have to see her and misinterpret every little thing she does. im such a puce. i cant even approach her to talk to her and finally find out what the hell her voice sounds like.
he he he... thats funny. im all spazed out about someone i've never spoken to. i really hate this non-verbal relationship. its hard to get anywhere with it. one of my friends told me to just go up and talk to her. and then i asked her how girls like to be apporached so she said: "strut right up to her a big manly way with a flower."
so i said: "right out of no where, in the middle of math class go up to her 'hey *hands flower* did you know that you have the same first name as my sister and my last girl friend?'" i cant beleive i just said that and am not willing to delete it. well, you now have your first two hints of her identity. just dont say anything to anyone else ah? even if you know they read my diary. this is really embarrasing.
i need a shave.
the early episodes of doug were really crudely drawn. and skeeter is really tallented. he can spin on turntables. i didnt know he could. that actually takes talent cause you have to be able to listen to two beats at the same time so you can mix the tracks so the beats meet eachother so no one can really tell you switched tracks. i mean, they'll know if they're really listenting, they'll know, but other than that, if they're just listening to the beat, you cant really tell cause the beats match up. i want to learn how to spin/scratch.
i get to go play pool tonight! whoo-hoo! me, and a whole bunch of people going to the military ball are gonna go shoot pool after. we're going w/ dae won, dennis, and mori's car. this should be all good. i like to shoot pool. and i challenged kim, specifically knowing im gonna lose. :) yeah. whos that dumb as rocks? its me. its me. i said whos that boy whos dumb as rocks? its me. its me. okay, i was trying to do something like the spartans cheerleaders on SNL. but i failed like a bitch. im a loser whos just trying to burn time by typing random usesless crap. i'll go now. peaches.
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