2001-07-26 - 11:42 a.m.
i hate being concious sometimes. it can be a real pester and annoyance. especially if you have nothing to do. watching pornography just isnt fun at 11 a.m. or anyother time for that matter. porno just isnt quite as fulfilling as it once was. maybe thats because i dont whack it anymore? cause isn't that the whole purpose of watching porno? well... then again, thats what got pee-wee herman arrested. eh... i have a feeling a lot of people are going to not like this entry. and for some reason, thats kinda amusing to me.
oh well...
i had another dream last night. but its fadding and i've already forgoten who was in it (besides me). i was making out with someone that i knew, but since the dream, i've forgotten who it was. and it was a pretty hot chick too. god dammit. this what i hate about being concious. when your concious, you're actively aware of the fact that i you dont know shit. in a dream, you can make anything up and of course it'll be correct because its what you think. its so cool being unconcious.
i wonder why i'm so open in my diary. nobody even approaches the level of openness that i do. nobdoy really writes about their dreams, or their open facination with pornography, or their new crush, or anything of the sort. sure, jevon writes some stuff, and so does yusef (when he does update), and jenna to an extant too. but nobody really writes as much shit as me. am i going more and more psychotic? (that would be pretty cool i think). or do i just not care what the fuck y'all think of me? (that would also be pretty cool). oh well... i have no answer. if there are any psychology students reading this, hows about a little help here?
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