2007-08-10 - 12:50 a.m.
my neck and shoulders are really sore. i've got muscles so tense in my neck i've got a headache and my shoulders are so tight that there's a constant dull pain.
that and my shoes suck so hard that my ankels are beginning to hurt.
but at least i quit smoking. i'm working on six days now. it's easier than i thought it'd be for me. granted, i'd only been smoking for like six weeks, but there's no withdrawls or anything. it's more of a mental issue than anything else for me.
on sunday, i was throwing football with nick and i was so gassed after just a few minutes i decided to quit right there. and i did. and i have stayed quit since then.
booya addiction!
i say this after drinking a soda at 10 pm and with an open beer next to me.
correction, an empty beer next to me.
so lately, i've been thinking about religion.
i kind of want to go to church, or a buddhist temple or something. i just want something to help center me internally. i already know i really like the concept of karma and samsara... or at least what i think samsara is. but yeah...
i started reading Quiet Strength, the tony dungy biography. a lot of it is about his faith and how it's helped guide him through his life. i'm not going to become a christian, but i still idolize the strength he has inside of him which apparently he draws from his faith. i still remember how he appeared after walking out of the funeral for his son. me? i'd be a mess. him, he has this look on his face and it was just amazing. i wish i could be as strong as him...
donna doesn't like the way sarah dresses. she said that a girl like sarah isn't for me based on the way she dresses. i really like donna... i really do.
i also really like sarah. she makes me laugh.
and i also like kara, this girl who works at panda express. she's really god damn cute/pretty/hot.
ka young/yeung said i need a hair cut today. i told her i was gonna grow out my hair longer than hers. she said she wanted to see that.
i hear a challenge!
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